yo! hi there again~
its studio period now and me and my grp,pandemic is going to have a presentation in jus a couple hours later...

Super shaggy now, i havent been really sleeping for nearly 48 hrs le lol!
Was super touched yesterday la.Someone actually stayed with me in school to chiong work even he have school at 9am the next day.Somemore pei me go home in the morning to get changed and washed up so tat i will not k.o.In the end he didnt even go home himself... =__= i feel so guilty that i some kind of buy him breakfast because he insist on paying some..
the stay was great thou, a new kind of experience in school at night hehe XP i really got no night life ~Went to school and slept on the table very 'un-glam-ly'.when i say sleep on the table, i really mean it literately,with my legs and body on the table ok?
K.O!and slept for 3 hrs with ppl walking around
Well, who cares when i'm tired sia？

group project haven't been really smooth sailing with quite abit of conflict here and there.but still we try our best and do wadeva we can.Now i just hope that everything tmr will be alright... Yea thru this SP, i really learn to trust people more in terms of working tgr and to let go sometimes.
YC i trust you!!
LOL


Yea, really man, our lives are so shorten.
May we die earlier.

i wanna recommend a book for u guys out there.it's really interesting and it really helps me alot.

the book is titled "IT'S NOT HOW GOOD YOU ARE, IT'S HOW GOOD YOU WANT TO BE"
i think it's really worth it for S$15 though its just a small book with127 pages only.Well, at least it got me off my emo-ness.
Some of the things that he say is really #$@%. really makes me think more about what i'm doing now and what should be my priority right now.Really if you got the time and money, go grab this from kinokuniya.It's really worth it.Below are some of the quotes...

"Your vision of where or who you want to be is the greatest asset you have。Without having a goal it's difficult to score."

" Don't look for opportunity.The one you have in your hands is the opportunity."

Have you noticed how the cleverest people at school are not those who make it in life?
What you learn in school are facts, known facts.
your job in school is to accumulate and remember facts.the more you can remember, the better you do.
Those who fail at school are not interested in facts; or maybe the facts are not put to them in the way they find it interesting.
Some people simply don't have a great faculty for memory.
It doesn't mean that they are stupid. It means that their imagination hasn't been fired up academic tuition.
People who are conventionally clever get jobs on their qualifications ( the past), not their desire to succeed (the future).
Very simply, they get overtaken by those who continually strive to be better than they are.
As long as the goal is there, there is no limit to anyone's achievement.




It's wrong to be right.
Being right is based upon knowledge n experience and is often provable.
Knowlegde comes from the past, so it's safe.It's also outta date.It's the opposite of originality.
Experience is built from solutions to old solutions and problems.The old solutions are probably different rom the present ones, so that the old solutions will have to bent to fit new problems (and possibly fit badly). Also likelihood is that, if you're got the experience, you'll probably use it.
This is being lazy.
Experience is the opposite of being creative.
If you can prove that you're right, you're set on concrete.You cannot move with the times or with other people.
Being right is also being boring.Your mind is closed.You are not open to new ideas.You are rooted in your rightness, which is arrogant.Arrogance is a valuable tool, but only if used sparingly.
Worst of all, being right has a tone of morality about it.To be anything else sounds weak or fallible, and people who are right would hate to be thought fallible.

So: it's wrong to be right, because people who are right are rooted in the past, rigid-minded, dull and smug.
There's no talking to them.

You must be the pillar of support.
you must be stronger den the others.
how can u intend to lead others when you aren't even stable yourself.

if people expect alot from you,
expect more of yourself den

Seriously
its not just about you
its about the others too

I'm so in love with Sunkist oranges now!i prolly ate more den 5 of them today.
prolly is because of the hot weather
...


probably its a mistake
probably I'm just too anxious
probably its just not meant to be
probably this time round its just different.


should i wait and see
or
should i let it go?

or
should i get my priorities right again?

Pondering
and
WASTING TIME!!




i
wanna
run
away
from
all
the
shit
in
this
world
.

is
any
one
with
me
？

Crucify My Love

Words & Music by Yoshiki

Crucify my love - If my love is blind
Crucify my love - If it sets me free
Never know, Never trust
That love should see a color
Crucify my love - If it should be that way

Swing the heartache - Feel it inside out
When the wind cries - I'll say good bye
Tried to learn, Tried to find
To reach out for eternity
Where's the answer - Is this forever

Like a river flowing to the sea
You'll be miles away, and I will know
I know I can deal with the pain
No reason to cry

Crucify my love - If my love is blind
Crucify my love - If it sets me free
Never know, Never trust
That love should see a color
Crucify my love - If it should be that way

'Til the lonliness shadows the sky
I'll be sailing down and I will know
I know I can clear the clouds away
Oh is it a crime to love

Swing the heartache - Feel it inside out
When the wind cries - I'll say good bye
Tried to learn, Tried to find
To reach out for eternity
Where's the answer - Is this forever
If my love is blind
Crucify my love - If it sets me free
Never know, Never trust
That love should see a color
Crucify my love - If it should be that way

Haven't been posting for a while.OK i know, its not a while but a long time...

But whatever la. Been really busy with school work and something else i'm trying to find out for myself.

Been really reflecting and thinking these few days.It really feels like the old days where i really think alot.Guess that all artist are depress in some sort of way because they really think too much at times. Sometimes they just analysis too much on topics and stuff that they really lost themselves in thoughts, making them the weird bunch i guess.

Weird = Artist

i really feel that i have no life.i feel very unsatisfied that i that i don't have the knowledge of the universe.Just no matter how much you try, you just can't. Guess thats what you called the greed of humans. If you think humans are strong beings, think again.

Sick also needed wake up in the middle of the night to complete my style sheet. now i really feel that artist and designer are a bunch of pitiful people.
NO LIFE.NO HEALTH.NO LOVE

Confused right now.To accept or not?
Which ever it is, school and work is still the priority in life now.


People keep wondering why i just keep chionging my stuff these days.
It's that i am competitive or what.
Just that i am following my passion, my first love.
Just like what mr James the other time to me,
to excel:
passion + hard work


I have been putting hard work but no passion.
i don't feel anything for the project at all.
Like what he said,
there is no soul in the work


Things that i really get by this week:
1) 1 tb of external harddisk
2) a under $100 printer with refillable ink. (got lots of stuff to print)
3) reformat my whole bloody computer
4) add 2 more gb of ram to my computer (total should be 5-6 gb ram)
5) solve the problem of my softwares only eating 2 gb of my ram

estimated amount i needed beg from my parents : $600>

Things i needa complete for now:
1) drawing of red lantern
2) 6 style frames
3) portfolio
4) show reel