Haven't been posting for a while.OK i know, its not a while but a long time...

But whatever la. Been really busy with school work and something else i'm trying to find out for myself.

Been really reflecting and thinking these few days.It really feels like the old days where i really think alot.Guess that all artist are depress in some sort of way because they really think too much at times. Sometimes they just analysis too much on topics and stuff that they really lost themselves in thoughts, making them the weird bunch i guess.

Weird = Artist

i really feel that i have no life.i feel very unsatisfied that i that i don't have the knowledge of the universe.Just no matter how much you try, you just can't. Guess thats what you called the greed of humans. If you think humans are strong beings, think again.

Sick also needed wake up in the middle of the night to complete my style sheet. now i really feel that artist and designer are a bunch of pitiful people.
NO LIFE.NO HEALTH.NO LOVE

Confused right now.To accept or not?
Which ever it is, school and work is still the priority in life now.


People keep wondering why i just keep chionging my stuff these days.
It's that i am competitive or what.
Just that i am following my passion, my first love.
Just like what mr James the other time to me,
to excel:
passion + hard work


I have been putting hard work but no passion.
i don't feel anything for the project at all.
Like what he said,
there is no soul in the work


Things that i really get by this week:
1) 1 tb of external harddisk
2) a under $100 printer with refillable ink. (got lots of stuff to print)
3) reformat my whole bloody computer
4) add 2 more gb of ram to my computer (total should be 5-6 gb ram)
5) solve the problem of my softwares only eating 2 gb of my ram

estimated amount i needed beg from my parents : $600>

Things i needa complete for now:
1) drawing of red lantern
2) 6 style frames
3) portfolio
4) show reel